I was born with artsy paws! The featured image on this article is my drawing of Eira Madyn, a former Chateau admin. I think I started drawing when I was only 4 years old and have always been known as an artist. This talent was a natural gift and got it from my father. It runs in the family as my uncles and aunts are also good at drawing. Looks like this skill is hereditary since it runs in my bloodline. I remember how when I was 7 years old and in first grade, I started selling my Sailor Moon and Anastasia drawings to my classmates — I guess I’ve always been an entrepreneur, too!
While I’ve always done drawings, it is unfortunate that I no longer have copies nor photos of my early creations. The earliest I could recover is this drawing when I was 12 years old. I sent it to kids magazine. If you are a fan of the anime, Naruto, then you know these two characters. I drew them for my sister — they were her favorite characters in Naruto!
Note that I had to blur out my signature on these drawings for protection as they have my legal names, although rest assured these drawings are all mine.
If you have kids and they have creations of art, I highly advise for you to keep them as memorabilia. I regret not keeping my old creations as it would’ve been nostalgic to see how my hands worked before.
Some of my drawings from 2012. It’s too bad I shot these images with my laptop’s webcam so they’re very low quality. And oh, I looked so different before! Haha. First drawing is of Nina Williams, the character I play most (and most skilled with) in the video game, Tekken. Below it is a simple self-portrait of mine. On the top right is a silhouette drawing of Jared Leto, taken from his band, 30 Seconds to Mars’ music video “Closer to the Edge”. I’m a huge fan of his since 2008 so I made a drawing of him. Last on this collage is a violin. My good friend plays the violin and that time, I was fond of him so I dedicated a drawing to him.
One of my first realistic drawings. I don’t really have a title for this, but maybe “The Kiss” for the lack of creative imagination! I was inspired by the song, “Daisy” by German DJ, Zedd.
The chorus goes, “Let me show you how a kiss should taste
Trust me, I won’t give your heart away
Why you running, running when you got it right here?
Oh, I would love you if you let me”
At that time, I very much liked a guy, however it was unrequited. He and I are still friends now though!
This is my drawing of Pamana (in English, “Heritage”), the Philippine eagle (our national animal) that was shot dead while newly roaming free in its natural habitat, the wild. How cruel can humans get sometimes, huh?
The Philippine eagle is named one of the largest, most powerful, and rarest species of eagle since its discovery. It is also now considered a “critically endangered” specie of bird.
Now this one is a fan art I’ve made for the one and only, Isibella Karnstein!
It is very unfortunate, however, that I was never able to finish this drawing — I lost the piece! Maybe one day I’ll happen to draw her again.
This drawing is very significant. It was the day I got diagnosed of clinical depression. That time, I was having suicidal thoughts yet the 1% hope left in me dragged myself to the hospital to get checked by a psychiatrist. I was always the happiest person people knew as I sported a huge smiley face all the time. Apparently, I suffered from concealed depression since I was 8 years old, stemming from emotional abuse from my family.
This creation is memorable. It also was the beginning of my journey to healing.
A dramatic time of my life. I no longer have a decent photo of this piece, except for this, ha! This drawing was my birthday gift to my then boyfriend/Dom. It was the most realistic, and I would say the best drawing I have ever created — took me about 18 hours to complete!
He ripped it apart upon our final break up.
Another significant and important drawing of mine. During that time, I was newly released from the psychiatric ward after being confined for weeks to heal. I was then diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder type II with hypomania. I now have answers to why I’ve always felt like something was “wrong” with me.
On this piece, I’m depicting the two polars of the mood disorder. On the left shows myself when suffering a depressive state, meanwhile the other is myself when on a manic state. I very much enjoy my manic episodes because I’m incredibly productive and hyperactive during these times. Although it can get confusing sometimes since being manic sometimes gives false positivity so I get confused if I really do feel positive or it’s just my mania acting up. Regardless, I’ve learned to take advantage of this state when my brain is hyperactive. I work my ass off and get things done. I always got asked how I could function normally in spite having zero sleep for almost 48 hours. When attending parties and raves, I never took drugs and I rarely drink liqour as well, yet I’m often the most energetic person around. They’ve always asked me what’s my secret! When I found out I have bipolar disorder, I have understood why I always had this natural high.
I, sadly, do not have any more new creations since the previous one which I made in February 2018. Thing is, I am a “moody” artist. I need to be in the mood to be able to create something beautiful. The problem with me is I am also a perfectionist and when something is not what I can consider close to perfection, I get frustrated and hate on myself. I have not made any new drawing because I worry I would not achieve the quality I prefer. I know practice makes perfect, but currently I struggle about refraining from being hard on myself; I set incredibly high standards.
I hope you enjoyed seeing my art! I know many others here are artsy themselves, like how Isibella does these amazing paintings and drawings. I look forward to other kittens publishing their art here, too!